I had a really good night’s sleep last night. Overall, I can see I am beginning to feel better. It’s just not like the switch from light to dark I wish would happen. To put it simply, the times I am feeling more lethargic and pessimistic are becoming either less prevalent or not as bad as before. I have a long way to go, but I know I am on the right road.
Right now, I am sitting outside, taking some sun in and getting some fresh air. The weather is surprisingly nice today so I might as well take advantage of it. I am feeling very peaceful and content at the moment. The warmth of the sun on my skin is so calming and reassuring.
For my overly active brain, meditation has been helping. I want to continue working on that. Yoga is another wonderful practice that I have my eye on. I’m reading a book on it now and have also been giving it a try. I have also been playing the piano, learning new songs. It’s very relaxing and takes my mind off things.
I am taking advantage of the time that I have off at the moment. Spring semester is around the corner, and with 6 classes on my horizon I know I will need to gather all the strength and good habits as possible. Last semester was rough. I managed to get As and Bs in my five classes, but I felt like crap. Not because of the workload, but because interacting with people became extremely difficult to me.
My anxiety affected me socially big time and I was awkward, uncomfortable and nervous during group work and presentations. I loathed going to class, and that’s no fun. I am hopeful that all the things I am doing to help my anxiety will help me relax in social situations again. Not that I have ever been the life of the party, talkative one, I just don’t want social interactions to be that painful ever again. Confidence in my ability to do well in my endeavors is slowly coming back, so I am looking forward to the semester. I’ve always loved a good challenge.